Friday, January 7, 2011

Fate

Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!

My response to this I think this quote is kind of true. “ We human beings don’t control our destinies. What is fated that what happens must happen. So let it happen. I think that this quote is kind of true because you choose your own destinies like, if you get shot it is your destiny because you were the one that choose to piss someone off.. If you were to die of drugs that is your choice to do it so, you can’t do anything about that so, your life is screwed and you will die soon from any drugs that are all over the world. But, if you were put in a group home they choose that destinies and that just the way it is and I think you have a choice in you future because you choose to be a drug or alcohol or Mary Jane addict so, I hope you choose the right and good path to your future and live a successful life.

My Response

My response is this. I think this quote is true. “We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen.” Because non of us planed on being in programs. We did what we did but we didn’t pick were we ended up at. I would like to be home right now but I can’t. Because I need all of this groups they say and that I need all this they give me. L can live with out it but my program don’t think so. So I been here to long already I pick my actions but not my consequence. Now I don’t live with my family I only get to see then 1 day every week. It’s hard for me to good when I don’t know what going to happen next in life. I want to be able to control my own fate but yon never know what going to happen if you going to lose it or not. I will always handle my consequence through know matter what happen in this world. I will never know how my fate will be for me bit I hope it will be good for me in my life so I don’t have to deal with the system anymore. I will try to make my fate do me good if I can. The world make it hard for every one to do good in there life. I want to change my fate so I will be good for the rest of my life with know one tilling me what to do no more. So I hope people think the same way I do about there fate like I do about my fate and shows them a good path in there future.

My Fate

I believe that we human beings cant control are own destines because we never know what’s going to happen every day. So like my brothers they are in wheel chairs and they didn’t want to be in a wheel chair god choose for them. Do you think they like being in their wheel chairs? Do you think they want to die in the e next year or two no the want to get older not die by the age of 20 or 13.they want to live till there like 60 or 70 but that’s not going to happen. Would you want to die at the age of 20 or 13? Probable not you would want to live for along time yes you would but you cant choose that.

My Fate

I believe in fate because we never know what’s going to happen we can live today and die tomorrow. I honestly don’t care what comes my way. I understand that we can’t control our fate all we can do is live it up and go with the flow. I know that I stand where I do for a reason. I remember how I always told myself that I wouldn’t ever get in trouble or locked up or in gangs.

When I was twelve, I started getting in trouble for a robbery and I met a kid named Erik in D.T. We were locked up together for three months when I got out he told me to call him and I did we went to his house and he should me his basement. He had an in house studio and we start messing with the equipment. I wanted to start rapping and I practiced everyday then finally we recorded three raps with his dads help. I liked what I was doing so I didn’t quit till this day I still do what I did that day. To be honest I’m glad I got locked up that day because if I hadn’t of got locked away I would do my favorite habit that I do today.

To this very day I’ve been locked up for a long time and no matter how hard I try to succeed i'm always in the face of defeat. I hate it but I know that it’s happening for a reason. I honestly hope it’s for a good one. I haven’t been with my family for over a year almost two. I know its all my fault but it was destiny i've met a few other young rappers with talent that have a dream so that’s my inspiration to keep it going because its not me only out there so if my homeboys made it ill use there studios and keep never quit.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Get Back

What the f*** are you doing “don’t let him beat you fight back” I can’t dad he’s to big he’s like 5 years older then me “I CAN”T” I don’t give a damn. He hit your little brother, quit acting like a little b**** and kick that little kid’s ass Ok…

AFTER THE FIGHT:

I can’t believe that you let him f*** you up. You’re a disgrace.. I’m putting you in boxing so they can use you as a punching bag for the kids who actually have balls! But dad. Don’t call me dad you’re not my son I’m putting you in boxing first thing tomorrow morning ok.. But i'm kind of nerves; i've never actually been in a boxing ring. I know that everyone’s going to be better then me because their there practicing a lot right? Yeah but as long as you try you should be ok. Ok dad

THE NEXT DAY:

Get the hell up.!!! Its time to go! Where are we going? I just got off the phone with the trainer from the gym down the street we’re going so you can meet him in 5 minutes hurry up and get ready. ”ok”. I hope you’re ready. Don’t think that their going to go easy on you. Those kids are going to try to hurt you and knock your jaw out of place, so promise me that you’ll give it your all and not act like you did yesterday. I promise dad I’ll give it my all. Can I ask you something? What? “Are you drunk? You smell like liquor” That’s my business don’t worry about me i’m fine just worry about your self. I don’t really want to do this dad. I’m sorry but you don’t have a choice are you ready to go? Yeah I guess, lets go.

AT THE GYM:
He bud what’s your name? Gustavo. I spoke to your dad over the phone he said you were exited so go put these shorts on and strap up. What do you mean strap up? Go put on the gloves and jump in the ring. Already? Yeah we need to see what you do on your own and we can’ll take it from there. Ok. Hey JR get in there with G it’s his first day. ARE YOU READY G “YEAH” ARE YOU READY JR “YEAH” FIGHT!!!

AFTER THE FIGHT

I’m impressed you did a lot better then I expected. I can see a couple things you need to work on. So will you work with my son? Yes id be honored to. What time do you get off school lil man? 3:00 be here tomorrow after school at 4:00 o’clock ready to go. Get a lot of rest your going to need your energy tomorrow. Ok coach. Well see you tomorrow.

Taking Life For Granted

Have you ever taken life for granted? I have before so many times. Now I don’t because I found out a while back that I’m going to have two brothers in wheelchairs. When I found that out that made me really sad. Now it is getting harder every month because we have to take them to the doctors. And the doctors tell us bad things that are happing to them every time. This makes it a lot harder for me and my family.

This year me my mom and my grandma took my brothers up to the hospital and the doctors that my older brother has a cricked back and that he mite not make it threw this year. My little brother’s doctor said that he might not make it to the age of thirteen and that his muscles are getting weaker every year and he’s only eight years old. That means he only has five years to live.

I’m not helping him by getting locked up a lot. He looks up to me and that means I’m not setting a good example for him. So that means I need to pull my head out of my a**and get my head on strait. If you know what I’m talking about you now how I feel. If you ever seen some in a wheelchair just think if that was you then think of these things you cant do when people are doing like go out side and make a snow angel, make a snow man, go swim, go camping, go fishing. They can’t do any thing with strength because they don’t have any. They lose it while they get older.

I learned that I shouldn’t take life for granted because what’s wrong with my brothers. And I hope that you learned some thing from this

We're Going Fishing

When I was told that I was being taken fishing I was the happiest kid ever. I was running around my grandma house. My grandma said to me, “Damon, Calm down.”
I said I never been before. My grandpa told me to “get some sleep we leave first thing in the morning” So I ran up to my bed and stayed there and though what it would be like. To catch a fish how would I get it or what I use to get it I couldn’t sleep I was just to happy. When my grandpa came and woke me up at 5:30 in the morning I was jumping for joy.

Were in the car driving to strawberry lake I was so inpatient to get out on the lake. My Grandma ask me “are you ready” I was more then ready by this time. The drive was the hardest part because it took so long. I though I was going to die by the time we got to the lake when we finally got there I was happy to be out of the car and helping my grandpa with the boat. When we push off the dock that when it all started.

I was on the boat ready to fish to catch all the fish in the lake. My grandpa said “here your pole” My eyes lit up like the sun and then I wanted to know how it work. Then I found out and I throw my line out and waited. To see what came next my grandma said to me “have to wait and be patient.

It seemed so long to sit there and wait for something so little or nothing because I never been fishing so I don’t even know there fish in the lake. So all I could do is sit but then I felt my pole tug my grandpa said “your getting a bit” so I panic because I didn’t know what to do. So I jump up and yank my pole hella hard but there was nothing on. Then I got really mad.

I cast my pole out aging and let it sit and sit thinking to my self I hate fishing. But then my pole tog way hard I yelled I got one I got one my grandpa said “good job” I reeled it in I was in the happiest kid in the world. I love going fishing now I will go when ever I can.

Shelby Dalton

My little sister was crying, telling me, “don’t go please don’t go”.

It all started about 8 years ago; I was at my little brother and sister’s house. My little brother did not remember me, but my little sister did. I felt bad because my brother would not give me a hug when I left.

I told her, “I have to”. Then I talked to her dad and he told me they would come over tomorrow. Then I went
My little sister was crying, telling me, “don’t go please don’t go”.
home. Then he never came over. We waited about 4 days, and my dad and I went back over to their house and they moved.

My dad told me “we will find out war they moved to”.

I told him “OK”.

I have never seen them again, but when I get out of my program I am going to try to find them. I think they are sum were in Mexico. I am going to get a car so I can drive to Mexico. I do not know what I am going to do when I get their, but I will still try to find them. I know that I will see them again so I am not going to let my self get down over what has happened.

When they left I started to get into drugs and smoking weed.

Friday, November 12, 2010

The Consequences is The Being of Hard Time pg17
By Damon

When you sit back and think that your consequences won’t lead you to hard time. Will I here to till your wrong because I though the same way but now I am doing hard time. Some of you guys think it easy but you can say that action speak louder of not being home with your family. I think it the worst consequences the system can give you. So I hope for all of you who are not in the system learn from someone who been in it for a while. But I don’t fell bad for all of you that make your consequences because you can do hard time. When your in the system you need to have a strong mental power to get you though or to get you home. So just think before you do something.


What I’ve done to get through my hard consequences was think of who I had on the outs or in lock as well. Because it really help to think about the good things in life. It help me out so much of being in this program. But I just though of how many times my family gave up on me because of my consequences. I though of my brother who went to long term who nerve gave up on me only took me in when my consequences got to big. For me to handle it by my self but I now I have to pay for it now because I have to do my time by me self. My consequences have hunted me for so long and it’s all got up to me and I am paying my dues and I will be out soon with my brother and my family so I want to till everyone to think before you do something that’s going to make you do hard time.

Friday, October 29, 2010

To me the thing that would be worse then dying, would have to be me having to watch some one in my family die. It’s happened to me before, I’ve lost my dad. He wasn’t there for me, so when he died my mind wouldn’t let me cry... I just couldn’t feel for a stranger… I mean it hurt.. It hurt a lot but after what he did to my mom, I kind of think that he sort of deserved what came to him. Does that make me a bad person..? “I don’t know you tell me”.

Since my dad wasn’t there, I had to show myself how to be a man, that’s probably why I don’t take kindly to any man that lays his hand on a female. I guess that my older brother is just like my dad, he would try to beat up his ex-girl friend in front of me and it would turn in to a big old fight. My brother and I have never talk things out we just always got mad, argued, and stood up and let our fist do the talking. That kind of shows that, I wouldn’t let it happen while I was there. I fight my older brother because of it. I really wish it wasn’t that way… but it is. The part I find funny is that, my older brother started acting like that when he found out my dad died. So I guess that his death impacted us in more then one way. I honestly don’t know what I’d do if something ever happens to my mom or brothers.. I hope that nothing ever does happen because from how many friends and close family that i've lost, I don’t know how much more I can take, but that’s life. So all I can do is hope and pray for the best..
Do I believe in any thing worse that death? I think that having someone cheat on you could be worse if you are engadged to the person. I feel this way because I got cheated on and she got pregnant. It made me feel like I was betrayed by the person I loved.

If I were ever to die I would let my family know that I am here for them and I always will be there for you at all times I will tell my family to remember me for who I was. If I ever to die my whole inheritance will go to my sister and my friend Adam.

Taken Life for Granted

How you ever took life for granted? I know I have many times. Because you don’t know what you have till it gone. I know I took life for granted yesterday on my way home from dinner. Because I seen someone in a wheelchair and I couldn’t help him or my self. Because I spent my hole life getting in trouble and he would problem die to live a normal life. To be able to walk play sports but he cant to everyone who has family in wheelchair I sorry for them and your family. I don’t know how you guys deal with it because I don’t know anyone in a wheelchair. So I would give my life to them because they deserve to have a chance at life I rewired mine a long time ago. I would be the first to let them live a normal life



It hard to sit back when there so many young kids out there that never walk before. Next time you are too lazy to walk some were just sit and think about someone else beside yourself. Because there kids family member that never walk before. I know I am going to put people in front of me. Because I see kid and work with kids that are in wheelchair. Working at Dan Peterson was the best thing I ever did in my life. Because it made me feel good helping kids that are not able to help there self. Know I am never going too take life for granted. Because I hade a good experience with disable kids. I am letting everyone at there people have it worse them we do. So try to see it and try to make your life better and live a good life.

Rumors

One thing everybody hates is rumors. Have you ever told a rumor or has someone tell someone else a rumor about you.

Well I can tell you that rumors can hurt and offend others in all different kinds of ways. One thing I would do is try to do avoid it all.
I think stuff could be worst. I think being tortured is worse then dying unless you die slowly and painfully. If it was my last day on earth, I would spend a lot of time with my family because there more important then anyone else also if it was my last day on earth my last words would be I would tell my mom that I love her and always will. I personally had my mom quit breathing on me I watched her try to kill her self because the doctors would not help her so she gave up and took all her meds at the same time so she over dosed on them and she went to the hospital and she was in a coma for 1 week. Its not the first time she has done that multiple times.

Take Life For Granted

Have you ever taken life for granted? I have before so many times. Now I don’t because I found out a while back that I’m going to have two brothers in wheelchairs. When I found that out that made me really sad. Now it is getting harder every year because we have to take them to the doctors. And the doctors tell us new things every time. This makes it a lot harder for me and my family.

This year we took my brothers up to the hospital and the doctors that my older brother has a cricked back and that he mite not make it threw this year. My little brother’s doctor said that he might not make it to the age of thirteen and he is eight years old. This means that he only has five years to live. But I’m not helping him by getting locked up every year. He looks up to me and that means I’m not setting a good example for him. So that means I need to pull my head out of my butt and get my head on strait. If you know what I’m talking about you now how I feel. If you ever seen some in a wheelchair just think if that was you and the things you wouldn’t be able to do.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Because they get spread around from person to person faster than any other thing does. They can affect each other in many ways. It can make others lose trust in each other. It makes you turn against your friends and family. And you can have yours or others feelings hurt and that starts a chain reaction of rumors. And we all know that rumors hurt everybody in many ways. My family has many rumors that have been spread about where I am at right now. They have said that I am in jail or am locked up. They have no idea where I am at. My parents have been protecting me from everybody’s opinion.

I want to be

He’s still yelling to your face, I see that hasn’t changed. To me it isn’t clear, why you walk in fear everyday. The bruises may erase, but the pain remains the same. When are you going to learn that he’s never going to change. You already know that its time to let him go. Its better to be alone then to be with some one that don’t care about you girl. Get with some one new and take a little risk. Call and say we’re threw, and take a chance on this.

If I’m part of your stress, then let me apologize. I want to be the key to your happiness, and keep your dreams alive. I want to be the one that makes you smile everyday, and helps erase the pain that you trapped inside, maybe one day you’ll say, I love you when you look in to my eyes. Hold my hand with pride when you walk by my side. Together we’ll survive threw the good times, the bad, and everything in between. You belong with me. Let me give you a sneak peak in to the good life of mine. Forget doing crime, with a girl like you by my side that really has my back. I’ll forget about my past and make the good times last. Put your heart in my hands give me a chance to show you that, I care and even threw the shadiest day, I’ll be there to wipe away the tears. When they fall from your eyes, your not being forced any more, You don’t disserve to be put threw all that. I got your back no matter what because what we have is really something to admire, and you know I mean it when “I say that its you that I desire.”

Respect and Loyalty

I think attending a funeral is very important because when you show up to the funeral it shows respect and manners to the family. If you know the person that is getting buried its better to go because it shows the family that you cared about them. If they were in your family you have to show up to the funeral. If you don’t that shows that you didn’t care about them.

How are you supposed to show respect and loyalty to your friends if you don’t show up to the funeral. Then that shows your friends that your fake and you didn’t want any thing to do with them and you were just there to make it look like you have a friend. If it’s your family and you don’t show up that means that you didn’t want any thing with him or her. That’s why you should show up to a funeral.

Attending a Funeral

Tending a funeral is very important to me. Because your showing your respect to them and there family and supporting them. It very important to have your friend back when you going through a rough time. Because seeing a friend or a family member getting put in the ground is not something you want to go though by your self. Let them know that you care about them showing them love because that what they need. Not showing up to your family or friend funeral is one of the worst things you can do because they need you there.


A fake friend would not even show up to show there support and give them the respect they deserve. Everyone hates a fake friend because your there hanging but when it comes down to it your gone. So stay with your family and friend and be loyal to them and show them that your there them. So just so up pay your respect to a falling friend or a family member. Because then they no that you’re a good friend and that they can relay on you when it’s needed. To all you fake friend read this and take notes and step up and be a good friend.

Arranged Marriages

Do you think it is ok to have an arranged marriages. I do not think it is ok because, if you do not want to marry a certain person you should not have to. My opinion is you should be able to marry any person that loves you. You also need to love them.

I would not want to be forest to marry someone I do not like. I think it should a special thing. I would let anyone decide how I marry. These are the reasons I think it is wrong to be forest to marry someone you do not want to.